Will Versus Weight

I realize that I started really working on my weight at a bad time. Here we are, in the midst of the holiday season, and I decide to be very health conscience. Someone should have stopped me and reminded me that this was not the time. There are so many incredible holiday spreads out everywhere you turn right now! I had to pass up oodles of goodies today at a Girl Scout Christmas party. I'm sure it won't be the last time this season, either. Oh well. At least, I actually did pass it all up! I wasn't really hungry. So, I didn't eat or snack. Now if I can just hold out a couple more weeks, all this should be past me!!

I weighed this morning, and the scale says that I am down 3 pounds!! Yeah me, again! = ) I am thrilled with 3 a week. That is a good rate to lose, and do it in a healthy way. So, I am thrilled.

I went to the gym by myself today!!! Yeah me! ; ) I had hoped to meet a friend there, but it wasn't confirmed, and I went anyway. I am proud of myself. I need to get used to going like that. If I have someone to work out with, then that is great, but not necessary. I need to make sure that I am keeping up with my own routine all the time. I did 40 minutes of cardio. The first 30 was on a treadmill, then 10 on a bike. I know 40 minutes of cardio isn't great, but hey, when you are starting from nothing, it isn't too bad. Oh! Not only did I go, but I went in the torrential rainfall we are having. I didn't even use that as an excuse, even though it would have been a valid one the way the roads are right now. So, I think I deserve a small pat on the back for all this today. Yeah me!

I really need to get into the gym. I just haven't. No valid reason. I could have gone alone any day this week. I just didn't want to go alone. I realize that I can't count on other people to make me healthy. I need to be able to do this alone. However it is so hard to start back all by myself. I want someone to talk to, and make the hour go by like it hasn't even started. Arg. I have to realize that this is never going to happen if I don't make it happen. I have an exercise plan and I need to follow it!! Diet alone won't make this change for me. I have a goal. I need to meet that goal. So, I need to do get my butt in gear and get it to the gym. Ok. Pep talk over. Now, anyone want to meet me at the gym Monday? ; )

I started my Phentermine today. Unfortunately, the day didn't as I wanted. I sort of tweaked for a while at first. My husband said that my eyes were totally dilated, but I never thought to go look for myself. See. Tweaked. I can handle that part, and I know my body will adjust. For this to work, though, I have got to get back into the gym. That will be Wednesday. I can't go tomorrow because I have appointments both morning and evening that will keep me out, and that would mean taking both girls with me. I don't know about that. I do know that I ate a little better today. Well, I ate less. I wasn't really hungry ever, but I did want to snack. I realized that was emotional, and tried to avoid it the best I could, even though I didn't succeed completely. Tomorrow is another day, though, and I will certainly try again. After all, this is going to be a life long process of change for me. This is it. The real deal.

I think the first thing I need to do is tell you about me. I am a 29ish women that has always been overweight. Well, that isn't true. I became over weight at about the age of 3, I think my mom says. I have since been diagnosed with Hypothyroidism, but even after getting that in control, I still haven't lost weight. Now, I am done having children, and have decided that this is the time to really change my life. I need to be healthy. I need to be here for my girls for the next 50 years. I won't do that if I don't get healthier. I am of a weight that I could have gastric bypass. However, that isn't an option that I would consider. My older sister had it, and is nearly dying of complications. I know so many people that regret the decision to have this surgery. So, I have decided not to go that route. My plan is pretty simple. I have changed my diet, and I am adding exercise. Also, for the short term to get me started, I am taking prescription Phentermine....