Will Versus Weight

Well, I am down three pounds in the last 2 weeks, and I think that is great considering the fact that I got my period in the middle of last week. It would have been much better, but I needed chocolate to survive. No really. I realize fully that the emotional ties that I have to food (needing chocolate to survive) are part of my problem, but I have as yet no been able to solve that. So, I have to keep working at everything. This is a life long process.

I swear the half a muffin my daughter ask me to save for tomorrow is staring at me. It was my muffin from lunch, but I ask for it to come to the table in a to-go box, and brought it home to her for her after school snack. So, she ate half and wanted me to save the rest. Now it is sitting in a baggie, just staring at me. I can neither eat it, nor throw it away. Why must it torture me so?

Obviously, I had given up, yet again, on myself. or some reason, I just can't seem to keep my motivation. I have none. I wish there was a magic pill, that even if it can't make me lose weight, it could at least give me the motivation to drop it. Well, Here I am again, and this time, I have a difficult, short term goal. I want to lose 29 pounds in 7 weeks. That is pretty hard core, and I am going to try. I think seeing this as a short term goal is going to help me. I don't know, but I am going to try.